Sunday, September 09, 2007
i'm rather irritated =X i wanna work...i don really need the money..i oso not say have alot of time...but i juz feel like working..the money even if don use now...poly start will be useful...time wise, i like no time to work...=.= soo argh! weekends r like a nono....since there is church and sat go grandma house and pnw pract and stuff like tt...
weekdays i busy going out..=.=" i wanna work so can spend more..and to gain experience..i always feel soo lousy when ppl ask me to write resume or to fill in forms ...cos i don have any working experience! kns~
sometimes i wanna be able to go for all outing tt my friends organized...cos i also like to organize outing to go out tgt...and i noe how it feels when ppl say they r not going and stuff like tt....but everything is like a give and take kind of situation. if i agree to both..i have to cut short the timing i'm meeting the 2 different grps.
i juz hate the fact tt i don like to make choices...and end up...both grp will be unhappy abt me...i oso hate the fact tt i don like to reject ppl...irritated by myself....let me rot alone and die suan le...=X
i juz wanna enjoy and everyone be happy...is tt very difficult? yah...it seems rather difficult...not easy to please everyone....cos when i do tt...i will be seen as selfish....only think for myself....only wanna have fun alone...maybe i better be a loner ranger...isn't tt great? can go shopping alone...eat alone and rot alone...but i don wan la...lolx...i prefer to have friends......oh man....i'm soo retarded...soo contradicting...pissed off by myself...kns~
donno why is this post up....but wadeva~
